I often wonder why this happened… Life was flowing along as it should in your mid-30’s. You are busy. So busy that you honestly don’t even realize how quickly one day flows to the next. You see it in the repeat loads of laundry, how quickly groceries disappear, the constant scheduling, scurrying from one place to another. Just trying to take it all in. Trying to remember your babies special days at school, firsts, lasts, and the in-betweens.
That’s where the cracks start to show. Small at first. So small you hardly notice. A little out of breath with going up the stairs… So maybe you gained a few pounds and should exercise more. Some pain in your side… You did bump it yesterday. Confusion… You have a lot on your plate. It’s easy to excuse these things. Look past them. Look to tomorrow when maybe, just maybe, things will be better. You can breath and the pain will be gone. But tomorrow isn’t like that. These cracks become a ravine and then you have to seek the answers. The hard ones that you don’t want to hear.
Then there’s the doctors that dismiss you. They tell you that you have anxiety or it’s “just part of getting older”. But you’re only 35! You should be able to walk up your stairs with a laundry basket, right? Or is this truly a curse of 35 year old’s that suddenly you age 30 years overnight? You have never been 35 before, so maybe they are right…
How the answer came will come in a different post, on a different day. Today I have something more abstract to share. Not the black and white of the medical reports and scans. You see, I think I might know why this happened. I am hear to share it all because there has to be a purpose in this. I always say that I am forever seeking the silver linings. It only recently occurred to me that maybe the reason that I am still seeking the silver linings, when every medical journal or website says that I probably shouldn’t be, is because there is a purpose in seeking and sharing them with you.
So here it goes, my friends. Let’s unpack these bags together. Let’s share how trauma, cortisol, stress, too much sugar, and a lack of coping can combine to create a terrible storm in the body. Let’s share how it can tear us apart from the inside out and only we can persevere to put ourselves back together ❤️
The Secret Life of Prednsione 